Am I really doing this aloud?

So I thought I would post my journey on the weightloss road.  I can't believe I'm doing this in a public forum, but I just felt the need.  The before pictures will be coming shortly.

It started January 07, 2010.  Was this a planned New Year's Resolution?  Nope.  I had been thinking about going on a diet for quite some time, but like many, never found the time which really means, I didn't really want to diet.  However, while on a camping excursion, my husband and I stopped at his Aunt and Uncle's for a visit.  While there, his Aunt was telling me how she was doing the Nutrisystem (NS) Diet.  She proceeded to tell me all about it.  Now, I had seen the comercial numerous times with Marie Osmond saying how much weight she lost, and now my Aunt was telling me the same.  I had previously looked in to NS so I knew the costs and had a basic idea what I was getting myself into, or so I thought.  The cost, well it's about $300.  That was easy to justify because when I figure I eat lunch out most of the time and was spending and average of $140 in lunches alone, I figure with breakfast and dinner this was a deal.  That was as far as I got.

January 2, 2010, my husband and I arrived at home and I thought to myself, so how much do I weigh now.  I went to the scale.  What I saw nearly gave me a heartattack.  I'm 5'4", with probably a medium build frame.  Now I do hide my weight well, most people couldn't guess correctly but when the scale says you weigh 176.5 lbs., it doesn't matter if you hide it or not this should not be.  The way I look at it, it wouldn't be too much longer before I weighed 200 lbs.  This is not happening to me.  I lovingly walked over to my husband and said, "I'm going on Nutrisystem", that's it.  He didn't argue, but then based on the tone in my voice alone, what was the point.  I got on the Internet and brought up the site.  I picked my meals based solely what I thought I would like.  I signed up for the automatic delivery so I could get the free shipping and committed myself to 3 months.  By doing so I would get 3 weeks of free meals and I'm giving myself that much time to lose what I believe should be 40 lbs.  Ok, maybe 40 lbs in 3 months is a lot to ask, but if I'm getting closer to 40, that is more than 20 then that's fine I can reassess the situation and decide if I wanted to stay on longer.  But, I'm committed to at least 3 months.  So now I wait.